horse accident part 2

Today is the 12th of May. I feel so much better. After weeks of having been in agony and learning lots about myself and my work, many decisions have been made and I have healed accordingly.

There have been many times of fear for not getting better and lots of tears of letting old pains come up and out, but since I have decided to concentrate on courses and seminars and wanting to train people to become clairvoyant so they will be objective, I feel a lot better and my healing process accelerated.

Already many hours a day I try to be without my neckcollar so that my neck muscles learn to carry my head again.

My neck is very stiff; I can hardly move it and this causes me fear. At the other hand it tells me to look forward; not to the sides nor backwards, as this would cause me a super human efford.

We are still in Germany and I spend most of the day meditating. Yet today I could go for a walk for the first time, without my head bursting of pain. That is magnific!

Since yesterday I can use my left hand for more than 2 minutes. I actually used it to eat with chopsticks yesterday! It worked. The coordination was there uninteruptedly.

I can hug again, still with delicacy, yet I can hug!

Yet underneath the skin of my whole body it feels as if I were wearing a neoprene wetsuit, only without the advantage of keeping me warm, as I feel cold very easily. The body, especially the whole front part and shoulders, are still numb underneath the very upper skin.

Last night has been the first night I slept 3 hours in a row. Until now the maximum was two hours or more often about 3/4 of an hour.

I am tired, very tired. Yet also I have started a new life with calm and peace and no pressure. Everything goes forward: hard but good. The buffalo sign for 2009 has presented itself con clarity!!

What I have totally forgotten is to tell you that also both my right cranial plates were broken. In the first part I did not mention this as not to give you a bigger shock than “necessary”, but now I feel you must have the total information of what had happened, because this way you can easily see that for me it is vital to train therapists that can do my work. Without my capacities of healing I really would not have survived this accident.
The stiffness of the neck with the pain at the right side, especially around and on the gallbladder point and meridian, bother me. Yet until now everything progressed in a good way, so I suppose that I will be able to move my head more and more very soon.

Decisions have been made:
The private sessions lie from now on in the hands of trained therapists in the Sa’Sen Yin method, who can be found in my website www.sasenyin.com except for those who are doing or have done courses or seminars with me; these I will still treat.
What I will keep on doing are relationship sessions, individuals as well as for couples; those in the process of dying and their families/friends; Pre-mommies and babies until 12 months old and sessions to develop spiritually.Please do know that you will be in good hands, going to “my” therapists. They are thoroughly trained and went a long and deep inner road. I would never have taken this decision if they were not good enough to overtake. So don’t be sad!!! Just come to me in the next seminar!