Life sometimes presents surprises or events that one really does not expect.
Since 12 years I have got a wonderful Islandic horse, a leading mare, on which I would trust to put anyone as she would never throw anybody off. The times she gets a shock she first freezes, stands still and overlooks the situation. Then she acts. Sometimes this means she calls the other horses, with which we were riding out, back, telling them: all is good, stay cool. Sometimes she changes direction but never so brusque that one would fall off. She has a lot of temperament yet is super steady and trustworthy even in the most difficult or dangerous situations. A wonderful horse for any demanding rider but also for someone who is a good rider yet super nervous.
It is Sunday morning, the 15th of March. Helmut and I are having breakfast (outside) and talk
about wanting to ride out that afternoon. Helmut asks me if I would like to take his riding helmet to Germany. No, was my answer as I can borrow Sonja's second helmet and at the first occasion she can take me to the place where they sell them I will by myself a good one.Since quite a while, actually since a very long time,, I have some people sitting in my neck; with this I want to say that I have helped them to get grip again over their lives but they refuse to grow up and become independent and keep on holding on to me. Especially two people became such a burden to me that I felt lots of anger even just by thinking about them. Yet I knew that if at that moment I would have told them, left them to their own devices, their world would have collapsed and there was even a great change of suicide. This responsibility burdened me and pressed on me. I felt totally closed in an restrained.
I am going to ride out with my husband on this beautiful Sunday afternoon, everything super easy and quiet: paths my horse is familiar with and will find just blindly all by herself, and all of a sudden I must have passed on my inner emotions of imprisonment to her (I never pass on anything but deal with it myself) and it must have been with such force that she felt totally restrained.She makes a jump to the left and I bash with the top of my head against a tree trunk, full 350 kg of the horse pressing against me on top of this. As she still has no space she jumps again and I bash against the same tree with the right sight of my head and again the weight of my horse pressing. Then she jumps once more and thanks to my safety stirrups I fell down and with care she jumped over me.
During the fall I saw black in front of my eyes, I bashed full weight against a big branch (did not notice this) through which I had an open wound from the left corner of my mouth right across my face until over my right ear, fortunately just underneath my eye which was spared (thanks to God for this). Of course my face was terribly swollen and made me unrecognizable.
Both my right cranial plates had moved over my right inner ear so that I could hardly open my mouth, with the consequence I could hardly talk.
Although all my right side was injured, arm, leg and chest inclusive, I found myself lying on my left shoulder on the ground. No idea how I got into that position.
The safety stirrups took care that I didn't stay caught with my foot otherwise I would have hit the rocks with my head at the point when my mare ran away, as those 10 meters would have been enough to be very dead! But I AM ALIVE!!!
I was wining a bit as I could not even cry but had hellish pains, but after a while I could ask Helmut to please help me up with lots of care because we had no mobile phone with us as to call for help and there were no people anywhere we could have called. On top of it he was standing there with two horses that just don't kind of dissolve into air.
With my head in my hands I walked home. Normally this distance would have taken me 5-7
minutes, it took me an hour. I had begged Helmut to canter home and call Sharon, one of my best friends and a therapist trained by me. I hoped she would come to help me.We almost arrived at the same time. I just entered the house and she arrived. The two of them helped me onto my massage table and Sharon started to work on my spine. Through this I could stay conscious and was able to carefully start to move my cranial plates back because one thing was clear to me: if I go to hospital like this they will operate me and I will not survive.
It went really well, there are only 2,5 mm to go but with that I want to wait until the whole hemorrhage has disappeared. This was about 20 cm by 15 cm large and about 1,2 cm thick an now it is about 6 cm in diameter and 3 mm thick.
Then I started taking Rescue Remedy of the original Bach Flowers every half hour and Traumeel tablets from Heel every 15 minutes. And my face: I covered it in Traumeelcream.
Then off to the hospital.
That was a pure catastrophe. They did x-ray me but haven't seen anything, although my left arm was totally lame and in agonizing pain, my whole right side of my head incl. face was totally insensible, yet the pain I had literally made me fear I would lose my sanity. The comment was: there is nothing broken. PERIOD.
No neurological tests, not even the simplest one was made, no traumatologist had seen the fotos although this was written in the report.
They kept me in observation with the (loving) warning they would come and look at me every hour but I was put into a room where the doors were almost closed, no bell to ring in case I needed help and I have not seen any one coming all night long.
At 8 o'clock I had enough and went to ask what was happening next. She asked me if I felt nausea. To my answer that I didn't she signed a paper, gave it to me and said you can go home. I got one of these neckcollars yet for children so that within two minutes my face was blue. I loosened it and never could get it fastened again as it simply was to small. I asked for another one which I got, with the comment they had given me the other one so it would not bother me so much as they are not so high! Then I called Helmut and with a wheelchair was driven to my car.
Every 15 minutes I took my traumeel, from the very beginning and also treated my face with the traumeelcream so that the next day I didn't look like a monster any more and was recognizable again which is the foto you see above. I was hardly visibly bruised nor swollen anywhere, yet the pain in my right arm increased more and more instead of getting better. In spite of the painkiller they had offered me and I had not take the first 48 hours to see how my body reacted to the homeopathy.
This day my daughter Erinda came home from having been looking after her partner for two and a half months who had been very ill. She had given up her work in Switzerland to fly to Tenerife to look after him and support him. Instead of being looked after by her mummy, something she really needed, she starts looking after me!
When I went to the control the doctor said it would be could to start taking the neckcollar off so that I would start training my muscles again!!
After 10 days my patience and capability of baring pain had passed their limits and I went back to emergencies where I moved heaven and earth, crying from pain, until a lovely female doctor realised what was going on and started to look for the traumatolagist. But of course by then he had gone. She phoned and phoned and at 17.00 h. he arrived and when he saw me he was shocked. Into the tube was his comment and until halfway the chest, not just the neck.
Then they loose those x-rays of this!!! He asked me 5 times if I really had been there as there were no fotos anywhere.
He cursed and screamed so long until then (at 21.30!!) the x-rays appeared. DOUBLE BROKEN NECK! The first, Atlas and 6th vertebra are broken. Imagine I had taken my collar off.... So collar on all the time and right arm in a sling. Thanks to the sling that night I slept for the first time again!! I am alive!!
I AM ALIVE! I want to train people to do this work as I have seen that without my work I would be a dead person by now. Any other person would not have survived this and int the best case would be waist down lame. I had to think of Christopher Reeves.
We need hundreds of therapists who can do this work as the people need this. We have to let go of our thoughts of competition and work toghether. Only that way can we ALL become happy. Money cannot pay for this. Love can.
About Love: when I went walking home right after the accident, head in hands, tears of pain and fear running over my wounded and bleeding face, a group of about 15-20 young people between the age of 20 and 35 came towards me doing a sunday walk. NOT ONE OF THEM GREATED; NOT ONE ASKED IF HE/SHE COULD HELP OR CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE. NOTHING!! I have the feeling that until now that is my greatest shock.
Now 3,5 weeks later I am in Germany, optimistic, in a good mood, patient (not always) and can do anything myself that has no weightlifting involved: washing and showering myself, dress and undress, brush my hair (must admit I wear it now in braids to make it easier because of less nots as otherwise it would be hell) brush my teeth, eat and drink and all this lefthanded. But I cannot lift a teapot, that is too heavy; I cannot cut a slice of bread etc. But I can ask others and it warms my heart to see how lovingly and willingly all of them want and like to help me. Thank all of you for showing that you love me!!!!!!!!! And most of all, thank you
Erinda from this place, because even when Helmut got seriously ill and I could only take the decisions of the treatment he needed, you did it all. You looked after the two of us from early morning to midnight; drove us to doctors, inspectors, adminatrative places of insurances, hospitals, cooked and shopped for us and you never gave us the feeling we were a burden to you. Although I could see how exhausted you were, you always asked if we needed something and always so lovingly. I do not know how I can thank you enough for that!!!
This should actually have been my last sentence, as I am sooooo endlesly greatful to God and you all. Yet I have to make a few things clear here: Without my work (the Sa'Sen Yin method) with which I treated myself, I would not be alive and without safetystirrup either!! Never ride without a helmet, because as you can see, Life sometimes provides us with tests we would have never expected. And take a mobile phone with you. Put in in silence then you should not be disturbed while having pleassure, but have it on so you can call if you need help. And Traumeel in drops of tablets as well as in cream together with the original Rescue Remedy of the Bach Flower Remedies are a must.
Thank you thank you again that I am alive and am allowed to experience that so may people love me!!!!!!! A big loving embrace to you all, Ria
What I write now should actually be a new post, but then it would appear before the previous one and it shoud be shown after, so this is from two days later.
All the time I was very patient; could handle my pains really well; looked inside for all that I could learn from this; remembered endlesly much of suffering (I had forgotten/wanted to forget) that I had experienced and lived in my life, but grateful for this accident, that I could not be, at least not yet. It still was tough and I suffered lots.
That has changed now. My conversation with Rosemarie last night and my understanding for my own wisdom have shown me something very special.
In January I told my friend Sonja in the Eifel that at the moment I would not be able to ride again, I must stop giving private sessions as otherwise I would not be able to break down the stress private sessions cause me. This morning I remembered this. A clearer sign that I should not give any more private sessions but should start doing what I really want for so long which is emphasize on training of therapists, seminars, courses and groupwork, God could not have give me. From June on this will be my new path, which is not really new, but I leave a lot behind me. The appointments I have untill then now give me pleasure again since I made this decision.
Now for all of you who regret this decision I want you to know that in my seminars very often a lot more happens with the people than in a private session and the attention is absolutely indivual as that is something I can do so easily: being with each one at the same time. And for the medical support we will find some time afterwards so it is not lost. At the same time, the most advanced therapists Amina and Sharon are busy with learning homeopathy. So I ask you to rejoice with me because this road is very important and good for us all in all senses of the word healing.
So you see, immobile outside, but inside it certainly does not stand still at all!!!!
Then I started taking Rescue Remedy of the original Bach Flowers every half hour and Traumeel tablets from Heel every 15 minutes. And my face: I covered it in Traumeelcream.
Then off to the hospital.That was a pure catastrophe. They did x-ray me but haven't seen anything, although my left arm was totally lame and in agonizing pain, my whole right side of my head incl. face was totally insensible, yet the pain I had literally made me fear I would lose my sanity. The comment was: there is nothing broken. PERIOD.
No neurological tests, not even the simplest one was made, no traumatologist had seen the fotos although this was written in the report.
They kept me in observation with the (loving) warning they would come and look at me every hour but I was put into a room where the doors were almost closed, no bell to ring in case I needed help and I have not seen any one coming all night long.
At 8 o'clock I had enough and went to ask what was happening next. She asked me if I felt nausea. To my answer that I didn't she signed a paper, gave it to me and said you can go home. I got one of these neckcollars yet for children so that within two minutes my face was blue. I loosened it and never could get it fastened again as it simply was to small. I asked for another one which I got, with the comment they had given me the other one so it would not bother me so much as they are not so high! Then I called Helmut and with a wheelchair was driven to my car.
Every 15 minutes I took my traumeel, from the very beginning and also treated my face with the traumeelcream so that the next day I didn't look like a monster any more and was recognizable again which is the foto you see above. I was hardly visibly bruised nor swollen anywhere, yet the pain in my right arm increased more and more instead of getting better. In spite of the painkiller they had offered me and I had not take the first 48 hours to see how my body reacted to the homeopathy.
This day my daughter Erinda came home from having been looking after her partner for two and a half months who had been very ill. She had given up her work in Switzerland to fly to Tenerife to look after him and support him. Instead of being looked after by her mummy, something she really needed, she starts looking after me!
When I went to the control the doctor said it would be could to start taking the neckcollar off so that I would start training my muscles again!!
After 10 days my patience and capability of baring pain had passed their limits and I went back to emergencies where I moved heaven and earth, crying from pain, until a lovely female doctor realised what was going on and started to look for the traumatolagist. But of course by then he had gone. She phoned and phoned and at 17.00 h. he arrived and when he saw me he was shocked. Into the tube was his comment and until halfway the chest, not just the neck.
Then they loose those x-rays of this!!! He asked me 5 times if I really had been there as there were no fotos anywhere.
He cursed and screamed so long until then (at 21.30!!) the x-rays appeared. DOUBLE BROKEN NECK! The first, Atlas and 6th vertebra are broken. Imagine I had taken my collar off.... So collar on all the time and right arm in a sling. Thanks to the sling that night I slept for the first time again!! I am alive!!
I AM ALIVE! I want to train people to do this work as I have seen that without my work I would be a dead person by now. Any other person would not have survived this and int the best case would be waist down lame. I had to think of Christopher Reeves.
We need hundreds of therapists who can do this work as the people need this. We have to let go of our thoughts of competition and work toghether. Only that way can we ALL become happy. Money cannot pay for this. Love can.
About Love: when I went walking home right after the accident, head in hands, tears of pain and fear running over my wounded and bleeding face, a group of about 15-20 young people between the age of 20 and 35 came towards me doing a sunday walk. NOT ONE OF THEM GREATED; NOT ONE ASKED IF HE/SHE COULD HELP OR CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE. NOTHING!! I have the feeling that until now that is my greatest shock.
Now 3,5 weeks later I am in Germany, optimistic, in a good mood, patient (not always) and can do anything myself that has no weightlifting involved: washing and showering myself, dress and undress, brush my hair (must admit I wear it now in braids to make it easier because of less nots as otherwise it would be hell) brush my teeth, eat and drink and all this lefthanded. But I cannot lift a teapot, that is too heavy; I cannot cut a slice of bread etc. But I can ask others and it warms my heart to see how lovingly and willingly all of them want and like to help me. Thank all of you for showing that you love me!!!!!!!!! And most of all, thank you
Erinda from this place, because even when Helmut got seriously ill and I could only take the decisions of the treatment he needed, you did it all. You looked after the two of us from early morning to midnight; drove us to doctors, inspectors, adminatrative places of insurances, hospitals, cooked and shopped for us and you never gave us the feeling we were a burden to you. Although I could see how exhausted you were, you always asked if we needed something and always so lovingly. I do not know how I can thank you enough for that!!!This should actually have been my last sentence, as I am sooooo endlesly greatful to God and you all. Yet I have to make a few things clear here: Without my work (the Sa'Sen Yin method) with which I treated myself, I would not be alive and without safetystirrup either!! Never ride without a helmet, because as you can see, Life sometimes provides us with tests we would have never expected. And take a mobile phone with you. Put in in silence then you should not be disturbed while having pleassure, but have it on so you can call if you need help. And Traumeel in drops of tablets as well as in cream together with the original Rescue Remedy of the Bach Flower Remedies are a must.
Thank you thank you again that I am alive and am allowed to experience that so may people love me!!!!!!! A big loving embrace to you all, Ria
What I write now should actually be a new post, but then it would appear before the previous one and it shoud be shown after, so this is from two days later.
All the time I was very patient; could handle my pains really well; looked inside for all that I could learn from this; remembered endlesly much of suffering (I had forgotten/wanted to forget) that I had experienced and lived in my life, but grateful for this accident, that I could not be, at least not yet. It still was tough and I suffered lots.
That has changed now. My conversation with Rosemarie last night and my understanding for my own wisdom have shown me something very special.
In January I told my friend Sonja in the Eifel that at the moment I would not be able to ride again, I must stop giving private sessions as otherwise I would not be able to break down the stress private sessions cause me. This morning I remembered this. A clearer sign that I should not give any more private sessions but should start doing what I really want for so long which is emphasize on training of therapists, seminars, courses and groupwork, God could not have give me. From June on this will be my new path, which is not really new, but I leave a lot behind me. The appointments I have untill then now give me pleasure again since I made this decision.
Now for all of you who regret this decision I want you to know that in my seminars very often a lot more happens with the people than in a private session and the attention is absolutely indivual as that is something I can do so easily: being with each one at the same time. And for the medical support we will find some time afterwards so it is not lost. At the same time, the most advanced therapists Amina and Sharon are busy with learning homeopathy. So I ask you to rejoice with me because this road is very important and good for us all in all senses of the word healing.
So you see, immobile outside, but inside it certainly does not stand still at all!!!!
