Christmas

Christmas is a very important event in the year.

In spite of what many people say or do, they all find Christmas important in some way or another. Some simply because they are Christians and really want to celebrate the coming of the Christ as he saved our planet from dying. But others, because these days they feel lonelier than all other days in the year, as on the other days people are going their way, but at Christmas all of a sudden they try to make life as cosy as possible, spending it with their loved ones, whether family or friends. These lonely people might hate Christmas then, yet it is important to them as they develop such strong emotions about it.

Christmas is the time where thoughts of love and peace are more pronounced than ever.

I had an ”interesting” conversation with a woman in the supermarket the other day.

I wished everybody a very beautiful and merry Christmas, and she was not having it. She would be working and so for her it didn’t matter.

I told her that in her work she could spend some extra energy in making it loving. She said it was the 'cheapest' feast in the year, because now people think of love. They should think of love all year around.

Of course I agree in that.

But does that make it wrong that at Christmastime people seem to be more aware of this?

Be realistic, people are not loving all year around and the fact that they should be, does not make them loving!!

What ever we do, feel or want with this, the fact is that from the 15 of January onwards, or even earlier, their normal trot through life starts again, and they forget a lot about all those good intentions.

And then at some point in the year it is Christmas again, and there you go…. They remember that love and peace are very important values. They do their best again to bring this into practice.

This they do every year again, and again, and again. And that is wonderful! Because the fact that it is Christmas reminds them of the good they actually carry inside of themselves, and by doing this every year, this bit of practising, every year they augment their own capacity of love and peace, which means that gradually they take bits of this into their daily life. Every year a bit more, every year a bit more convinced, every year a bit stronger. Because we humans tend to want to do things “more” each time, as if we were in a competition; a competition with ourselves.

Then we see all these charity fund rising happenings going on just before and during

Christmas. People simply are more generous during this time of year.

Is that bad? I feel, that if at any other time they would not want to even think about a child with leukaemia, or a woman stoned to death in Africa, or homeless children in Tibet, to mention some examples, yet they are willing to face these truths now, during this period of year, and are willing to help whether with money or material or whatever they do, that that is great. For better late than never… or?

Who are you anyway, that “you” that feels you are allowed to judge what is so right and so wrong? Have you discovered all aspects? Is your conscience really clean? Do you know all the backgrounds of all and everything?

You know what I really feel? That being grateful, being tolerant, is really wonderful. And that to me seems like wisdom. But condemning to me feels wrong. One can express one’s emotions, but… fill in yourself. For even here I feel I am not allowed to continue, except within myself.

Happy New Year to you all!!! In Love, Ria

I am sorry

I am very sorry to have waited so long with writing.

Fortunately I can say I am well, my neck is a lot more stable.
In the end it was all worse than it first was diagnosed; my 1st. 5th and 6th vertebra were broken over the length and the 4th partly.

It was very painful till now, but today is the first day I have a feeling that the pain is decreasing and so there is more hope of total healing.

Soon I will be able to write more interesting posts again about the most diverse themes. At the moment all I can say is: go into Utube, look under Ria Panen Godesberg and look at the various themes I talk about in the interview; especially the ones that interest you most, and at the same time you can get to know me better.

Nevertheless the themes I will talk about in this blog will be very different from the ones in the interview. Some very down to earth, taken from life. To think about; possibly a beacon. That is up to each person.

Do know though, each of us is responsible for all we do, even in thought. Not the government etc are to blame... it starts at each individual!!

lots of Love, Ria

It's hard

It is hard to notice that, when one tries to do everything right; to stay quiet; to embrace and investigate every detail of one's illness and then all of a sudden.... one slips and the 6th vertebra is broken again.

That is what happened to me the 4th day of being back home on Ibiza. And as if it were not enough: the next day, I was sitting on a wicker chair, my hair hanging over the back lean, a friend of mine wants to kiss me by way of greeting and leans with his hand on my hair (the back of the chair) with which he jerks my head backwards and breaks my first vertebra again.

That was hard.

Really hard.

And after that my traumatologist says that it will take at least 6 months before I will be able to let go of my neck-collar and sling; that this takes long to heal.

Here I had to swallow and the first few days I did a lot of crying. It was a struggle to not become depressed.

But I did not get depressed. I paint and paint and prepare myself inside for my new life, in which I will show the world all (I hope, is my intention) what I am and can do.

Soon you will find the interview that Cynthia and Pete Bampton did with me, on this blog, so that you can get to know me better. At least there will be parts of the interview.

The video has been taken shortly after the second time of braking both my vertebras and I hope that you will be able to see what all is possible if one really goes for "it" and that what really matters....

With all my Love, Ria

horse accident part 2

Today is the 12th of May. I feel so much better. After weeks of having been in agony and learning lots about myself and my work, many decisions have been made and I have healed accordingly.

There have been many times of fear for not getting better and lots of tears of letting old pains come up and out, but since I have decided to concentrate on courses and seminars and wanting to train people to become clairvoyant so they will be objective, I feel a lot better and my healing process accelerated.

Already many hours a day I try to be without my neckcollar so that my neck muscles learn to carry my head again.

My neck is very stiff; I can hardly move it and this causes me fear. At the other hand it tells me to look forward; not to the sides nor backwards, as this would cause me a super human efford.

We are still in Germany and I spend most of the day meditating. Yet today I could go for a walk for the first time, without my head bursting of pain. That is magnific!

Since yesterday I can use my left hand for more than 2 minutes. I actually used it to eat with chopsticks yesterday! It worked. The coordination was there uninteruptedly.

I can hug again, still with delicacy, yet I can hug!

Yet underneath the skin of my whole body it feels as if I were wearing a neoprene wetsuit, only without the advantage of keeping me warm, as I feel cold very easily. The body, especially the whole front part and shoulders, are still numb underneath the very upper skin.

Last night has been the first night I slept 3 hours in a row. Until now the maximum was two hours or more often about 3/4 of an hour.

I am tired, very tired. Yet also I have started a new life with calm and peace and no pressure. Everything goes forward: hard but good. The buffalo sign for 2009 has presented itself con clarity!!

What I have totally forgotten is to tell you that also both my right cranial plates were broken. In the first part I did not mention this as not to give you a bigger shock than “necessary”, but now I feel you must have the total information of what had happened, because this way you can easily see that for me it is vital to train therapists that can do my work. Without my capacities of healing I really would not have survived this accident.
The stiffness of the neck with the pain at the right side, especially around and on the gallbladder point and meridian, bother me. Yet until now everything progressed in a good way, so I suppose that I will be able to move my head more and more very soon.

Decisions have been made:
The private sessions lie from now on in the hands of trained therapists in the Sa’Sen Yin method, who can be found in my website www.sasenyin.com except for those who are doing or have done courses or seminars with me; these I will still treat.
What I will keep on doing are relationship sessions, individuals as well as for couples; those in the process of dying and their families/friends; Pre-mommies and babies until 12 months old and sessions to develop spiritually.Please do know that you will be in good hands, going to “my” therapists. They are thoroughly trained and went a long and deep inner road. I would never have taken this decision if they were not good enough to overtake. So don’t be sad!!! Just come to me in the next seminar!

Riding accident

Life sometimes presents surprises or events that one really does not expect.

Since 12 years I have got a wonderful Islandic horse, a leading mare, on which I would trust to put anyone as she would never throw anybody off. The times she gets a shock she first freezes, stands still and overlooks the situation. Then she acts. Sometimes this means she calls the other horses, with which we were riding out, back, telling them: all is good, stay cool. Sometimes she changes direction but never so brusque that one would fall off. She has a lot of temperament yet is super steady and trustworthy even in the most difficult or dangerous situations. A wonderful horse for any demanding rider but also for someone who is a good rider yet super nervous.

It is Sunday morning, the 15th of March. Helmut and I are having breakfast (outside) and talk about wanting to ride out that afternoon. Helmut asks me if I would like to take his riding helmet to Germany. No, was my answer as I can borrow Sonja's second helmet and at the first occasion she can take me to the place where they sell them I will by myself a good one.

Since quite a while, actually since a very long time,, I have some people sitting in my neck; with this I want to say that I have helped them to get grip again over their lives but they refuse to grow up and become independent and keep on holding on to me. Especially two people became such a burden to me that I felt lots of anger even just by thinking about them. Yet I knew that if at that moment I would have told them, left them to their own devices, their world would have collapsed and there was even a great change of suicide. This responsibility burdened me and pressed on me. I felt totally closed in an restrained.

I am going to ride out with my husband on this beautiful Sunday afternoon, everything super easy and quiet: paths my horse is familiar with and will find just blindly all by herself, and all of a sudden I must have passed on my inner emotions of imprisonment to her (I never pass on anything but deal with it myself) and it must have been with such force that she felt totally restrained.
She makes a jump to the left and I bash with the top of my head against a tree trunk, full 350 kg of the horse pressing against me on top of this. As she still has no space she jumps again and I bash against the same tree with the right sight of my head and again the weight of my horse pressing. Then she jumps once more and thanks to my safety stirrups I fell down and with care she jumped over me.
During the fall I saw black in front of my eyes, I bashed full weight against a big branch (did not notice this) through which I had an open wound from the left corner of my mouth right across my face until over my right ear, fortunately just underneath my eye which was spared (thanks to God for this). Of course my face was terribly swollen and made me unrecognizable.
Both my right cranial plates had moved over my right inner ear so that I could hardly open my mouth, with the consequence I could hardly talk.

Although all my right side was injured, arm, leg and chest inclusive, I found myself lying on my left shoulder on the ground. No idea how I got into that position.

The safety stirrups took care that I didn't stay caught with my foot otherwise I would have hit the rocks with my head at the point when my mare ran away, as those 10 meters would have been enough to be very dead! But I AM ALIVE!!!

I was wining a bit as I could not even cry but had hellish pains, but after a while I could ask Helmut to please help me up with lots of care because we had no mobile phone with us as to call for help and there were no people anywhere we could have called. On top of it he was standing there with two horses that just don't kind of dissolve into air.

With my head in my hands I walked home. Normally this distance would have taken me 5-7 minutes, it took me an hour. I had begged Helmut to canter home and call Sharon, one of my best friends and a therapist trained by me. I hoped she would come to help me.

We almost arrived at the same time. I just entered the house and she arrived. The two of them helped me onto my massage table and Sharon started to work on my spine. Through this I could stay conscious and was able to carefully start to move my cranial plates back because one thing was clear to me: if I go to hospital like this they will operate me and I will not survive.

It went really well, there are only 2,5 mm to go but with that I want to wait until the whole hemorrhage has disappeared. This was about 20 cm by 15 cm large and about 1,2 cm thick an now it is about 6 cm in diameter and 3 mm thick.
Then I started taking Rescue Remedy of the original Bach Flowers every half hour and Traumeel tablets from Heel every 15 minutes. And my face: I covered it in Traumeelcream.

Then off to the hospital.
That was a pure catastrophe. They did x-ray me but haven't seen anything, although my left arm was totally lame and in agonizing pain, my whole right side of my head incl. face was totally insensible, yet the pain I had literally made me fear I would lose my sanity. The comment was: there is nothing broken. PERIOD.

No neurological tests, not even the simplest one was made, no traumatologist had seen the fotos although this was written in the report.
They kept me in observation with the (loving) warning they would come and look at me every hour but I was put into a room where the doors were almost closed, no bell to ring in case I needed help and I have not seen any one coming all night long.
At 8 o'clock I had enough and went to ask what was happening next. She asked me if I felt nausea. To my answer that I didn't she signed a paper, gave it to me and said you can go home. I got one of these neckcollars yet for children so that within two minutes my face was blue. I loosened it and never could get it fastened again as it simply was to small. I asked for another one which I got, with the comment they had given me the other one so it would not bother me so much as they are not so high! Then I called Helmut and with a wheelchair was driven to my car.

Every 15 minutes I took my traumeel, from the very beginning and also treated my face with the traumeelcream so that the next day I didn't look like a monster any more and was recognizable again which is the foto you see above. I was hardly visibly bruised nor swollen anywhere, yet the pain in my right arm increased more and more instead of getting better. In spite of the painkiller they had offered me and I had not take the first 48 hours to see how my body reacted to the homeopathy.
This day my daughter Erinda came home from having been looking after her partner for two and a half months who had been very ill. She had given up her work in Switzerland to fly to Tenerife to look after him and support him. Instead of being looked after by her mummy, something she really needed, she starts looking after me!

When I went to the control the doctor said it would be could to start taking the neckcollar off so that I would start training my muscles again!!

After 10 days my patience and capability of baring pain had passed their limits and I went back to emergencies where I moved heaven and earth, crying from pain, until a lovely female doctor realised what was going on and started to look for the traumatolagist. But of course by then he had gone. She phoned and phoned and at 17.00 h. he arrived and when he saw me he was shocked. Into the tube was his comment and until halfway the chest, not just the neck.
Then they loose those x-rays of this!!! He asked me 5 times if I really had been there as there were no fotos anywhere.
He cursed and screamed so long until then (at 21.30!!) the x-rays appeared. DOUBLE BROKEN NECK! The first, Atlas and 6th vertebra are broken. Imagine I had taken my collar off.... So collar on all the time and right arm in a sling. Thanks to the sling that night I slept for the first time again!! I am alive!!

I AM ALIVE! I want to train people to do this work as I have seen that without my work I would be a dead person by now. Any other person would not have survived this and int the best case would be waist down lame. I had to think of Christopher Reeves.
We need hundreds of therapists who can do this work as the people need this. We have to let go of our thoughts of competition and work toghether. Only that way can we ALL become happy. Money cannot pay for this. Love can.

About Love: when I went walking home right after the accident, head in hands, tears of pain and fear running over my wounded and bleeding face, a group of about 15-20 young people between the age of 20 and 35 came towards me doing a sunday walk. NOT ONE OF THEM GREATED; NOT ONE ASKED IF HE/SHE COULD HELP OR CALL FOR AN AMBULANCE. NOTHING!! I have the feeling that until now that is my greatest shock.

Now 3,5 weeks later I am in Germany, optimistic, in a good mood, patient (not always) and can do anything myself that has no weightlifting involved: washing and showering myself, dress and undress, brush my hair (must admit I wear it now in braids to make it easier because of less nots as otherwise it would be hell) brush my teeth, eat and drink and all this lefthanded. But I cannot lift a teapot, that is too heavy; I cannot cut a slice of bread etc. But I can ask others and it warms my heart to see how lovingly and willingly all of them want and like to help me. Thank all of you for showing that you love me!!!!!!!!! And most of all, thank you Erinda from this place, because even when Helmut got seriously ill and I could only take the decisions of the treatment he needed, you did it all. You looked after the two of us from early morning to midnight; drove us to doctors, inspectors, adminatrative places of insurances, hospitals, cooked and shopped for us and you never gave us the feeling we were a burden to you. Although I could see how exhausted you were, you always asked if we needed something and always so lovingly. I do not know how I can thank you enough for that!!!

This should actually have been my last sentence, as I am sooooo endlesly greatful to God and you all. Yet I have to make a few things clear here: Without my work (the Sa'Sen Yin method) with which I treated myself, I would not be alive and without safetystirrup either!! Never ride without a helmet, because as you can see, Life sometimes provides us with tests we would have never expected. And take a mobile phone with you. Put in in silence then you should not be disturbed while having pleassure, but have it on so you can call if you need help. And Traumeel in drops of tablets as well as in cream together with the original Rescue Remedy of the Bach Flower Remedies are a must.

Thank you thank you again that I am alive and am allowed to experience that so may people love me!!!!!!! A big loving embrace to you all, Ria

What I write now should actually be a new post, but then it would appear before the previous one and it shoud be shown after, so this is from two days later.

All the time I was very patient; could handle my pains really well; looked inside for all that I could learn from this; remembered endlesly much of suffering (I had forgotten/wanted to forget) that I had experienced and lived in my life, but grateful for this accident, that I could not be, at least not yet. It still was tough and I suffered lots.
That has changed now. My conversation with Rosemarie last night and my understanding for my own wisdom have shown me something very special.

In January I told my friend Sonja in the Eifel that at the moment I would not be able to ride again, I must stop giving private sessions as otherwise I would not be able to break down the stress private sessions cause me. This morning I remembered this. A clearer sign that I should not give any more private sessions but should start doing what I really want for so long which is emphasize on training of therapists, seminars, courses and groupwork, God could not have give me. From June on this will be my new path, which is not really new, but I leave a lot behind me. The appointments I have untill then now give me pleasure again since I made this decision.

Now for all of you who regret this decision I want you to know that in my seminars very often a lot more happens with the people than in a private session and the attention is absolutely indivual as that is something I can do so easily: being with each one at the same time. And for the medical support we will find some time afterwards so it is not lost. At the same time, the most advanced therapists Amina and Sharon are busy with learning homeopathy. So I ask you to rejoice with me because this road is very important and good for us all in all senses of the word healing.

So you see, immobile outside, but inside it certainly does not stand still at all!!!!

Sexual energy, develop it!

Wow, yupee, SEX!!

Sex is something that most people really like.
For several it is as important as their daily bread. They cannot imagine that there are actually people that easily go without.

*Now is this what I really want to talk about?
*Is it the sexual energy that makes people become obsessed with sex?
No, it is not. And so I am not going to talk to you about frequent sex. But yes, it is sexual energy that makes the crispy feeling that can happen between two people, and not necessarily in a sense of wanting actual physically sex with each other. But it is a feeling of being alive, of vibrating, of fire…

And this is the clue: sexual energy is all about fire. Sexual energy is the energy that makes us capable of growing in our mother’s tummy, of being born.
Sexual energy makes it possible for us to live in a body, a physical, very alive body. It is the engine for every physical movement; it is the motor behind our brain function, which means that without sexual energy thinking is unheard of. Sexual energy takes care for the body temperature; it is the sparkle of our energy. Without sexual energy we would actually be very dead!

Now hearing all this, it is clear that this is an energy to develop.

*But why would we call it sexual energy?
Because sex is still the medium through which we enter this material world on planet earth. It is situated in the chakra where the sexual organs are situated, and we cannot think of life without having to consider sex.

*Now why is this all of a sudden so important?
People are having sex all the time.
That is definitely true. Yet ask all the people who have sex, if they actually enjoy it. Does it revive them or do they feel very tired afterwards? Are they usually feeling very full and enrichened afterwards, or more empty and lonely, as if someone had taken something away from them?

Most people use their sexual energy wrongly. They do not really understand what they feel inside, they notice an urge, a throbbing, and follow this up. They do not try to understand what is happening inside the rest of their system, so they become will-less and behave far more like an animal than like a human being. And I am not saying that they might not have the best intentions. Yet it feels somehow not quite the way we would like it to be.

The root chakra, the chakra in which the sexual energy is generated, is also the chakra for inner safety, stability, survival and the basis or beginning of the self.
It is the first chakra that develops after conception.
When we are capable of developing this chakra and its inner fire, when we are capable of rightly using it in the rest of our system and when we know how to get it there in the first place, our total feeling of wellbeing will highly increase. Our health will improve, our happiness will become indestructible, in spite of the adversities that might cross our path, and, this might be the best for some of you, your physical strength during sex will have augmented noticeably. You will know how to use this in your sex life, for which as well you as your partner will be grateful, for your sex life will highly improve.

Developing your sexual energy will ultimately even turn you into a better person. So if that is what you want, let me know, as I certainly can show you how to get there.

Also see my website http://www.sasenyin.com/ under seminars, Sexual Energy.

With Love, Ria

What this blog is about...

This blog is meant to show ideas, things to think about.

Your life is too precious to just be waisted in lessure. We have a responsibility as we came to this world to learn something and to give something.

That is what this blog is about and it will be done in three languages.
It is possible that there are mistakes in the english writing. Please do forgive me as I write in languages that are not mine.

Other sites I have that might interest you are: www.sasenyin.com and http://loving-relationships-marriage-advice.blogspot.com

with love, Ria